I have flown for a couple of years on and off . I am to the point in my
training that I have completed several local xc solo flights. I am
getting ready to complete my solo xc"s and go for my checkride. But my
problem is that it is very hard for me to just drive out to the airport
that is only 2 mile from my office, get in my plane and go flying. It
just doen't feel right..........

I don't believe you are feeling anything abnormal or unusual. After you
solo, you realize that EVERYTHING is in your hands -- literally -- and
that's enough to give anyone with a brain pause...

When this would happen to me, I knew it was time to feel the joy of flight
again. I would "sneak" over to Lake Michigan (from East Troy, WI), just to
say I did, and just to see that awesomely beautiful sight from the air. My
spirits would soar, and suddenly every bit of anxiety was gone, as I felt
the plane become one with my thoughts.

After that, it was almost a Zen-like experience, where I could feel like
banking *that* way, or maybe pulling up into a power-off stall -- all good
practice, by the way -- until my hour was up and I had to return to the
airport.

In this state of mind, carving around the pattern like the plane was on
rails, an extension of my thoughts and motions, would usually result in a
good landing...and I would go off to work whistling all day.

Don't worry. You'll get over this!
--
Jay Honeck
Iowa City, IA
Pathfinder N56993
www.AlexisParkInn.com
"Your Aviation Destination"