Of course there are many examples of pilots dying, Some of us try to
learn from other's mistakes. Not all lessons are learned well, and
accidents do happen. Your (attempted) superior attidude reminds me of
some studies that were done on MD pilots a long time ago, and maybe
JFK Jrs at that time: their attitude of whatever - being superior? --
led to an increased accident rate.

A lesson that might be learned by you is, if your life isn't all it
might be, adusting that attitude might be useful. But in your case,
it's probably too ingrained and way too late. Did you know many sel
airplanes burn as much value in fuel an hour as you can afford to eat
on in a week?

But I could be mistaken, you might be very happy with your life. It's
nice to recognize one's limitations.