Bertie the Bunyip wrote:
i have
contempt for the ignorant, though. And by the ignorant, I mean that in
the truest sense of the word. Those who do not want to know...
....
You might notice I;m not rude to more than a select few and they, quite
literally, ask for it.

Find a dictionary. Look up the definition of "literally". It doesn't mean
what you think it means.

You don't strike me as the sort of person who engages in self-contempt,
though. You are probably just confused by your own motivations and
rationalizations.