Hanging up my wings

Mike Gaskins writes:

Over the last few months I've unexpectedly lost consciousness 3 times
on two occasions (second time I went out again a few minutes later).
I've also had several episodes of not feeling "right" - dizzyness,
inability to focus, feeling disconnected, etc. I haven't been flying
at all during this time as I was afraid of anything happening in the
air, and now, though I haven't gotten an official diagnosis yet, all
signs are pointing to me having panic disorder. I've no doubt that I
will/would fail my next medical; I don't even trust myself in the air
at the moment and have voluntarily grounded myself. Kinda
disappointing as I've always been so interested in flying and having
only started training about 2 and a half years ago (and having had my
PPL for less than a year); it's not fun to have to hang it up so
early.

Since you make it sound exactly like a self-fulfilling prophecy, I daresay you
think it's a lot more fun than you admit. You've already diagnosed yourself
and written off your PPL without even talking to a doctor. You probably don't
really want to fly for some reason (which might indeed be related to a panic
disorder, but there are many other possible reasons).

Oh well. Just needed somewhere to rant a bit. I'm thinking I'll keep
going up every now and then with an instructor along; it's not the
same as solo (I actually enjoyed flying alone), but it's a safe and
legal way to get into the air.

So something is making you panic on the ground or in the air and you'd rather
stop flying entirely than risk having that unpleasant experience again?