I was an arrogant son-of-a-bitch before I learned to fly.
That's many years ago now, but I recall watching all those guys and gals in
their 172's thinking I'd be into a KingAir before they even got certificated.
Guess what happened instead - I actually learned something! First thing I
learned was how much I didn't know. You are light-years away from that and
moving at lightspeed toward the dark end. That would be a great new pseudo for
you by the way "LightSpeedToward Darkness". Can we get that enacted right
away?

More on what I learned - the immense satisfaction of mastering the thing -
never master, but every day less and less a slave. Far too humbling a
satisfaction for the likes of you to assimilate. Of course I never came
anywhere near your abyss of pride and ignorance. Perhaps you really are at
lightspeed and there is no recovery possible.

Today I still don't have my KingAir, but I have a 182T and I'm just enthralled
at what a capable airplane it is! I hate to gloat about it, but I'm really
happy not to be in the deep rut you're in. You know you're in deep trouble.
Find professional help.